It all happened so fast I can't believe it.

At 11:30 my sister barged into my room waking me up, telling me that my other sister is in labour (sp?) and that she already has 1 cm ontsluiting/opening/whatever-you-guys-call-it-in-English. I practically jumped out of my bed and got ready asap. We arrived at her place at 2, thinking that we were still early and that we had enough time to go to the hospital all together. But then my brother-in-law opened the door and said oh-so-casually: "We can see the head!" ............. And I was liekwtfomgyoukiddinme?!!

39 minutes later I became an aunt. Her name is Norah, she weighs 3kg and she's the most beautiful baby alive. She is the love of my life and I think I'm in love. Haha XD !!

She looks like her mom, and to be honest a bit like me as well. Only her lips are her father's. She has beautiful big brown eyes(?? that I'm still not very sure of but I know they will become that color later) with which she stares beautifully at her proud auntie Sammie! I've held her and hugged her and cleaned her and kept her awake while she was suckling on her mother's nipple :D :D ! And when she cries? A piece of my heart shatters. So yeah, I'm very thankful she's a happy baby and doesn't cry much, only when she's hungry and needs to be changed XD!

I took a picture of her with my mobile and I seriously cannot stop looking at it. So much that I already need to recharge the battery while I already did that yesterday. :|

But it's late now and I'm off to bed. Just wish I had Edo already. Right now I really need to have someone to talk to and hold and simply just love.


*sigh*


ETA: Oh yeah, Merry Christmas Everybody!!! Hope you had a great day and half as good as mine! ;o)

Okay, so I'm updating 'cuz I seriously think that earedienneh should update as well. That girl hasn't been around a lot at all and I'm sure people must be thinking where she has disappeared to. So people, check this funky Belgian girl's LJ out. And to lure you: she's got great taste in music! Thanks to her most of you know Ozark Henry, Jasper Steverlinck and all the other Belgian bands.

Anywho, more about me. Well, I'm working on AutoKut. Fucking hate that program.

In other news, I want to eskimo-kiss Ron Weasley. He's just teh cuteness.

And for those who're wondering what happened to Jeffry. One word: CREEPY! He simply freaked me out. Am not going much further into that.

So yeah.. [/end update]

My mom left today, after having her around for 1,5 years.

I should be happy, since I'll be having my life again and such but I can't help but feel miserable and miss her terribly. It's stupid really, I mean.. what girl at my age would want to live with her mother, ALONE, and leave her own personal life aside? It's a different story if I were to have my own life and find a compromise between my mom and myself, but that wasn't possible. My mom needs attention and someone to care for her, which is actually something my dad is supposed to do but for some reason isn't capable of doing. But that's not the point here. It's that I'm going to miss her terribly and I feel like crying (which I am doing from the inside) but from the outside it's like I'm dead. I'm incapable of showing any emotion whatsoever. Even during our goodbye my mom was getting teary and before that she was even crying on the phone whith my sister, about how she's going to miss me and that my sister should take care of me and not leave me alone.

It's all so crappy. I don't understand myself anymore and I don't understand the person that I was before, a person who didn't want to have a mother around, while it's a gift and a pleasure to have such a person who you love and loves you so much in return.

I'm rambling. Never mind me.


Off to uni!

Woohoo! So just by accident I thought I'd try and see if there were any concerts scheduled for Kane. And guess what?! There's not just one concert, but TWO! WOOHOO!!

So my concert-pall and I planned to go on Wednesday, december 7th in Rotterdam Ahoy! I cannot wait! I'm so going to take pictures and try and make a video/audio-clip! I just messaged Emy and asked her if she's interested. Hope she'll say yes, even though the price isn't very convincing... Hrmm... :-\

cecine, I'll think of you when Dinand sings 'All I Can Do' and will try to record it, someway or another. ;o)

Seriously, I love that woman! She's at the TMF-Awards right now and she messaged me a while ago that she's there and that Kane is going to perform (LIEOMGWHOA!!!)!!!

But that's not because I love her but because she asked me if I'd like it if she'd call me to let me hear Gabriel Rios (whom I love liekwhoa as well :D). And I mean, come on! Who am I to decline?!!! I said that I wouldn't mind of course (after proposing to her) but that I'd love to hear Kane more, so yeah! She hasn't called yet, so I wonder who she's going to let me hear! That is, if she still is planning on calling! *loves on Val*

In other news.. I was supposed to go to Ozark Henry tomorrow (this Sunday) but the concert got cancelled 'cause the drummer got sick. Now I have to wait till December 21st. Same thing happened with Jasper Steverlinck last June. At least his concert is coming soon, November 17th. Not much waiting for that. And I promise I'll be as good and call Val as well and let her enjoy them, since she has called me once before when she was at a Novastar concert. *loves on Val some more*

I wonder if she'll accept my proposal. XD

ETA: WEEIEIEIEIEIEI! SHE CALLED! AND I HEARD JAMIE CULLEM!!! LIVE! WIEIEIEIEIE!

Just watched Episode II of Season II of Lost.

The awesomeness and geniusness of it isn't necessary to express. At all. It's way too obvious.

Other than that, I wish there were more episodes of QaF. I miss Brian. So much that at uni I always imagine seeing him. >.<

And why is it that this one very cute Portugees guy at uni can transform from a hot momma into a total freaky geek/loser, simply when wearing his backbag? Makes him look like a junior from high school. :-\

I have to say that I'm so desperately in love with 'Queer as Folk'! I've been watching it none-stop. Am not very far yet, but I've downloaded season 1 to 3 and have watched the first 2 and the first episode of the 3rd. Seriously, is there anyone sexier than Brian Kinney and Ethan Gold? Like WHOA!! I should definitely try writing those two only I'm not sure if it's a realistic combo with Justin being the one between these two. *sigh*

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Anyway...

I've noticed that I'm really not into Elijah anymore ( :O ) or any of the LOTR actors ( :O ^2 ). I'm happy to read any HP-related stuff or QaF, but nothing revolving LOTR. It's a shame really, since almost 3 years of my life have been devoted to it and now it's like over, done, gone forever. I was so passionate about anything that had to do with it and now it seems like I'm missing something. I remember the days that I used to go online like EVERYDAY just to see if there's anything new (like foto's or interviews) and practically read every fic story that was ever written. I somehow feel lost. Hrmm.. I seriously should get a life!

And now I can't wait for 'LOST' to begin either. Somewhere in September. The 27th... or was it the 21st? I can't remember. Will have to check on that. You have no idea how grateful I am that I can download stuff from the i-net without any limit. Downloading 'LOST', 'Desperate Housewives' and now 'Queer as Folk' should have been impossible were I still be in Goes. I only wish that my connection was a bit faster.

Other than that I've been busy reading my very first (and good) Harry/Snape. Seriously, I'm so not into this pairing since it's not realistic at. all. and it's very important for me that a story is realistic and good and everything. I'm really critical you see. Anyway, this story "If You Are Prepared" is seriously awesome! To everyone who's into HP-fandom should really read it! I have to warn you though, it's very long but oh so worth it! Three utterly beautiful parts. *hearts*

And now I'm off to watch some more QaF! *loves*

I FINISHED MY BACHELOR THESIS!!!

and Jeffry is a fun distraction

Today is Tuesday, the day I was supposed to go on the "date" with Jeffry. And I did.

It was really awesome. I had very much fun with him. Although now I'm not really sure that I really do have feelings for him. I think I like him just as a friend. The idea of him and me as more just doesn't fit. I have a feeling he knows that as well. We're just good as friends.

We had lunch on the Maas (a famous river I don't know the name of in English) in Rotterdam and I drank some lovely rosé. We stayed there for 2 hours when then we took a walk to a fake beach in the middle of Rotterdam. Pretty funny, but there was this cute café and we had a drink there as well. We talked a lot and laughed. It was so comfortable and awesome. We didn't have any awkward moments/silences or whatsoever. Then suddenly we were talking about our friends and I told him that Emy and I had something in common: writing.

...

He smiled and then asked, "Like erotic stories?"

I seriously didn't know what to say so in the beginning I just denied it. Eventually he found out, not only that they're erotic but that some are slash as well. *laughs* He was very much interested in reading one of them. Heh. eh... Not sure if I'll let him though. We'll see about that.

Anyway, that was all. Now I'm off to work on my Bachelor essay. Wish me luck.

Today I had my last exam. I did pretty well, surprisingly. History has never been my best subject. I now only have to finish my Bachelor Essay by next Friday, which shouldn't be that difficult.

Tomorrow evening I'm going to the birthday party of Manon. It'll be great to see everyone again really, although I do hope that some people like Sina will not annoy me. Emy and I were supposed to go buy a present together tomorrow in the afternoon, which was supposed to be fun. Only now Angela and Sina want to join in on the present, something I seriously do not mind, besides the fact that now Sina is going to come along to the city/downtown/center and I just hate that. Yugh. I can't believe that I'm going on a holiday with her. I cannot believe how I ever agreed on that. *rolls eyes*

Anyway, if I do not pay too much attention to her it should be fun, especially since we're going to La Strada later that night. I so hope I'm going to see cute-little-Ruben-who-isn't-so-little-anymore. I wonder if he'll recognise me. Hehe.

On Sunday and Monday I might go to Renesse, a little town that's by/on the coast. A friend of mine (Nadine) has a big house there on the beach and Liliane and I might go up there and relax a bit. I can't wait!

And then Tuesday... *sigh* I so hope that I won't make a fool out of myself in front of Jeffry. Hrmmm...

Oh well.. all I can do is pray.